Happy New Year everyone! 

My wish for us all is that 2017 will be a gentle one and that we will finish strong! Smash some goals and be proud of who we are and how we moved through this year! The year is still unwritten, the pens in our hand, let’s write a beautiful story!

Do you make new year resolutions?

I never used to. Mostly because within a couple of days, weeks or months, I’d land up having failed miserably at whatever resolutions I’d put in place. Then along came infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss and for over 7 years, all I thought each new year was:

Maybe this year will be my year, maybe THIS year I’ll have a baby, maybe THIS year will see my dream of motherhood realized. 

And of course, for the longest time, that dream got smashed to smithereens! So many new years would come and go and that dream would not be realized. And the heartache and devastation grew with each passing year. Thankfully, back in December of 2009, my dream of motherhood would finally be realized and again in 2013 and life went on.

But I never quite got back to making resolutions or setting goals each year for myself. Content, after so many years of heartache, to just drift through the years and fully immerse myself in my role as a mother.

But then, in January 2014, something extraordinary happened! 

I joined the blogging movement of choosing a focus word for the year. I never really thought much about it, it seemed like a cool idea, everyone else was doing it and I knew something had to give in terms of my aimless drift through life.

The words I chose that would define that year were: I AM!


Two such very powerful words because what came after them shaped my reality and how I see myself, it transformed me and made me who I am today.

2014 was an incredible year for me! I transformed my life and my health through banting. And that in turn shaped how I saw myself. It was a year that I realized my own strength. My strength of will and my determination. My ability to overcome and my ability to smash goals I set for myself, ones that had, for years alluded me. Ones that had seen me defeated and accepting of who and what I was.

In 2014, I lost almost 35 kg’s and through the course of that journey, I believe I developed to my full potential. I got fit. I got strong. I got confident in myself and my ability. You can read more about my transformation here: Fat2Fab

But 2015 was not a kind year!

2015 smashed me into the ground and by the end of it, I was broke financially, spiritually and emotionally. My depression was in full force and my anxiety was out of control. I limped through the end of that year, having had a full nervous breakdown, something I downplayed a lot on my blog here and with my life only just in tact. 

I was a broken woman.

And so much of 2016 was spent healing.

Getting my depression under control, getting back on my feet and being very kind and gentle with myself for the sake of my fragile mental state. The problem with that is that while I had an ok year, I didn’t achieve anything extraordinary, aside from ending the year with my sanity in tact. And I made excuses for myself in my guise to be kind to myself. I drank too much wine, I didn’t exercise nearly enough because I was tired and fragile, and I ate badly. Very very badly.

The result is that I’m starting 2017 10kg’s heavier than I was in January of 2016.

Now that may not seem like such a big deal to most of you. But trust me, it has massive knock on effects for me. It has affected my confidence and my self belief. It has made me terrified. I promised myself at the end of 2014 that I would never go back to being the woman I was when I tipped the scales at 118kg’s. I cannot. Not for the sake of my health, not for the sake of my well being. My physical transformation journey transformed so much more than just my body and I promised myself I would never go back.

So 2017 will be the year I claim myself and ALL my potential BACK!

My word for 2017 is claim!

Claim every opportunity that comes my way.

Claim ALL that I can be, the very best version of me.

Claim back my strength.

Claim back my self belief.

Claim back my fitness.

Claim back my health.

Claim back my body and my mind.

The time for excuses is over!

It’s time to get tough on myself. My depression and anxiety are under control, there is absolute no reason to excuse myself. There is no reason to continue on this path of self destruction under the excuse of being gentle with myself. Sometimes we have to take a long hard look at who and what we are and where we’re going and what we want and in the words of the Australian comedian, Chopper Read:

Harden the f*$# UP!

No more excuses! Victory is mine because I CLAIM it! 

Will you walk this journey with me? Will you hold me accountable? Will you push and stretch me? Will you do this with me? 

Happy New Year everyone! Whatever your goals are for 2017, I hope you SMASH them!